|As I look at this picture it reminds me of how safe I am when I am holding onto the Lords hand through the trials of this life - just as my precious daughter can feel safe and enjoy the waves while she holds on to her daddy.|
If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. James 1:5-6
It is of great significance that this verse comes directly after instruction to consider it joy to endure perserverance. My interpretation of that wisdom had been God's direction - something like "okay Lord what should I do next". This was followed by a sense of insisting that I be obedient to whatever it was that I felt the Lord leading me to do.
I have recently felt like that wave of the sea. One minute I am doing alright and feel like I am standing on firm ground and following what the Lord is leading me to do. Then the next minute I am in tears doubting who He made me to be and the steps that I am taking. What James says in verse 7 is pretty harsh - "he (who doubts) is a double minded man, unstable in all he does".
As I was thinking about this, I realized it is in these times of trial that God's wisdom is of such great significance, not because it is necessarily telling us what to do, but instead it is reminding us of what to believe.
When going through trials, I often try to figure out what I need to do next to make this trial end. I again want to take the reigns and take control. I want this trial to end and I think I know the best way to make it end. Sometimes, I just don't want to believe because I don't like the way the Lord is leading us. How silly I am to think that I can fix anything on my own or that I know best. When I start taking things into my own hands or fighting what God is doing, I become that unstable man - doubting my steps and riding the roller coaster of emotions.
Instead, I believe that many times God is calling me to just endure, wait, and trust in his wisdom and His promises. He is calling me to believe and not doubt His leading and all His promises.
Last night someone pointed out to me Matthew 7:24-27, which comes at the end of Jesus Sermon on the Mount.
v. 24 Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. v 26 But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand.
What is very interesting to me today about the Sermon on the Mount are the many promises that Jesus gives us during the teaching. He starts with the beatitudes promising blessing for the poor in spirit, those who mourn, the meek, those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, and so on. He tells us in 6:28-34 not to worry but to seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well. In 7:7 Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find; knock and the door will be open to you.
Is it really as simple as seeking Him and delighting in Him, and then believing what He says is true? Is that the way to peace and joy through trial and pain? Is that the wisdom God gives generously to all? If it is then Lord help me to believe with all I am and not doubt. Help me to stand on the rock of your promises as the wind blows around me. Help me to seek you first and delight in you. Help me to not do or take control, but to trust, obey, and wait patiently for your perfect timing in my circumstances. Thank you for your many and precious promises.